Dragonblade81

Lost... Why do I feel lost when you're not around? Why does it seem like my life unravels when you aren't there to fill the void? Minutes..hours..days.. it doesn't matter. If you're not there, it feels like pointless existence. It's kind of crazy..it's not like you are physically here with me. Waiting on an email, an instant message, a phone call with words of want and need spoken. How did this happen? I'm so independent, but I need you so much.. When I find out I might not talk to you for days, it's as if my soul withers.. But there's a need in me, there's a fire that burns that cannot be quenched by typical means.. I feel..tired..

I thought I would be alone forever. Deep in my heart, no one would understand.. I'm strong. I'm proud. I'm in control. I'm in charge. Everyone would listen, but no one would really hear... Until you. I am strong.     (Will you be strong for me?) I am proud.   (Please give me something to make you proud!) I am in control. (I don't want to have to fight anymore.) I am in charge.  (Care for me.) You see... I am all of these things.. I am strong,  because no one else was for me. I am proud, because no one else was proud of me. I am in control, because no one wanted the responsibility.. I am in charge, because